Along the way the path changes, stops are made, and sometimes the back roads are taken.
But what happens to the ‘wants’ when the ‘needs’ take over?
Where do they go?
It’s the pulling up to the house when memories of endless freedom come flooding in.
It’s the intensity of the beat that overwhelms the moment.
It’s the stroke of a letter on a piece of paper that reminds you of the dreams.
But what happens to them when you’ve woken up?
Where do they go?
It’s the long drives to nowhere that have to end.
It’s the responsibilities of the now that take over.
It’s the you that you don’t recognize in the mirror.
So tell me…
Can you still reach for them as you pull up to the house?
Can you listen for them while the beat carries on?
Can you write the life you want to live?
They can’t possibly be lost forever. It just can’t be. It can’t.
Let’s bring them along for the ride.
Let’s include them in the next chapter.
Let’s write it all down.
Where do dreams go?
After 13 months of nursing I can officially say I am done. It’s a bittersweet feeling. But in the end, I’m ready to move on from this chapter in my life. It was a really important goal of mine to nurse Braden for a full year, with zero supplement from formula. And I did it. I can’t believe It… But I did! It was a really rough first couple of months, and I thought for sure I was going to have to stop. But I persevered, and accomplished my goal. The benefits outweighed any struggle that I had, and I’m glad I chose to keep going.
I know every mom will choose their own path, and I support any decision! This is just my own little pat on the back for surviving the past year as being Braden’s (partial) lifeline. I will miss the sweet cuddles and sleepy blue eyes peering up at me..
But I know it’s time to move on and let Braden grow up just a little bit more. He no longer needs me in that way and I must accept that the world is ready to have just a little piece more of my sweet Braden. Oh and sweet he is.
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