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I’m starting to wonder what you’ll look like. I close my eyes and can see your smile, your laugh. It’s the sweetest i’ll ever know. I love to have breakfast by the pool and see you swimming, jumping into the deep end, giggling down the slide. I love daydreaming of the things you’ll love to do.
What will you like? What will you dream of? I can’t wait to help you grow into the person you’re meant to be. You’ll be nothing but greatness. I know it.

I love you ( so much),

Your mama

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these little heartbeats

24 weeks

My little Valentine is 24 weeks today. I got to hear his little heartbeats too. The night before my monthly checkup, I always get the most excited. I usually barely sleep all night. I look forward to hearing his little tiny beating heart. While I feel him moving around all the time – it still doesn’t feel real until I see him on an ultrasound or hear his heart beating.

When I was little, I could never sleep the night before going to Disneyland –  I was too excited! I get the similar feeling before the night before a doctors appointment. He’s my little miracle. My little guy.

16 weeks to go!

I love you,

your mama xo

these little heartbeats

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My favorite part of my day is laying in bed, holding my belly and feeling his kicks. They keep getting bigger. I am slowly starting to see my belly move with each kick! I miss him all day when I’m busy and don’t notice his movements. I love falling asleep with a little smile on my face because of my little guy. I love him so much.

I love you,

Your mamma

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this little guy

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Boy. I still can’t believe there is a little boy growing inside of me. Incredible. It seems like the most unnatural thing to be happening, and yet it is the most natural experience a woman can have. I am SO overjoyed to be having a boy. It’s funny, because I just assumed I would want to have a girl. Mostly because I am a girl, and I know how to be a girl. But the moment I found out I was having a boy, it was like any thoughts of having a girl vanished. I’ve never been so excited to meet anyone in my life. I can’t wait for soccer games, surf contests, drums blaring, guitars strumming, first dates, first kisses ( i’ll never hear about i’m sure), skinned knees, ripped jeans, stained clothes, jumping off couches, rough hugs and those little dirty hands. His tiny fingers laced with mine. Cheers to boys! I’m ready!

 

17 weeks to go.

 

I love you,

 

your mamma

this little guy

these little kicks

music

At 19 weeks I finally felt the first kick of my little guy. I was sitting in bed watching football – the Denver Broncos lost to the Ravens. It was a great game…even though they lost. I think my little guy was just as upset as me, he kicked in frustration. It was amazing.

I had been waiting (patiently?) to feel a little kick. I was starting to get worried that I would never feel it. Then it happened. They haven’t stopped since. If I’m moving, he generally is still, or if I play music for him. He loves music. I love music. So it works out.

I’m always torn between feeling him kick around, or laying still – headphones on my stomach so he can listen to bands that will one day be his “all time favorite”. I can’t wait until he’s here. He brings me so much joy and I haven’t even met him yet. Rock on little guy.

 

18 weeks to go.

 

i love you,

your mamma.

these little kicks

these little shoes

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i never thought that a little pair of shoes could mean so much to me. every time my eyes  come across these little shoes, i can’t help but get the biggest smile on my face. sometimes i just sit in bed and hold them. it’s unimaginable to me that someday soon, my SON will be here – and those are HIS shoes. they have little tiny velcro straps that i open and close constantly. HIS velcro straps. i love him so much and i can not wait to meet him.

19 weeks to go.

i love you,

your mamma.

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these little shoes